I had my technical theatre evaluations today, they went very well. They were mostly composed of telling me that I’m doing good in the classes, and that they are impressed with the fact that I can do what I do, how well I do it, in the theatre. They also said they were impressed that I overcome the obstacles that I do everyday. They also all wished me good luck on the surgery.
Hearing praises about “overcoming my obstacles” isn’t something that I’m unfamiliar with, not that I’m trying to brag by any means. It is just something that I run into on a regular basis. I’m not complaining either, I like hearing that people think that I do a good job at the overcoming of what I go through. I also appreciate people realizing the fact that I have to work hard to produce the work and satisfaction that I achieve for them.
But I don’t strive to be a role model for the praises. I do it for myself, to make myself a better person. I want to be a productive member of society and I want to do, for myself, what will make me, my family, and my friends proud. I also do it for others, so they can look at me and see that if I’ve made it through my younger years deaf and went to a major mainstreamed college.
My acting professor taught me in a class that “somebody should listen to praises about their work, but not let them get to your head,” that there is also “always room for improvement.” I heeded that advice even before I ever learned it from her.
Even though I’m never going to be an actor, I use that advice to my own advantage. I use it in the form of receiving praises of “overcoming my obstacles”. I will never let the fact that I have “overcome” these (in the eyes of everybody else at least) get to my head. I also always see room for improvement in the way I handle certain situations. I wish to be a role model and living proof to other people to show that you can have downfalls in your life and still be somebody to be proud of.
I strive to be a role model for the parents who have to decide whether or not to get the same operation for their 4 month old infant, I strive to be a role model for the deaf teenager who is feeling alone in middle or high school, I strive to be a role model for the adult who just lost all their hearing in a week and misses the sounds of life, I strive to be a role model for people of all different types of life stories that feel that somehow they aren’t good enough. I strive to be a role model for people of all different situations, deaf or not. I also strive to show people that eventually your dire circumstances will get better.
It may not appear that way at first, but they will.
I’m hoping that these blogs are still staying interesting to you, have a good rest of the weekend!